Thinking out loud about all I see, hear, feel, and experience as I seek to know and serve God.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Since reading Andy Andrews The Noticer (you have read it, haven’t you?) I find myself consciously noticing more things than ever before. I find myself making mental lists of things I notice so it was only natural to record things I noticed at the beach last weekend. Perhaps it was because I wasn’t on my “home” beach of Gulf Shores. A native Floridian it was my first time on an Atlantic beach in quite a few years. Noticing differences seemed only natural; of course some things apply to any beach, anywhere.
· The water in the Atlantic is saltier than the water in the Gulf of Mexico.
· The Florida Atlantic beach sand is hot to walk on in August.
· A lot of people must buy bathing suits without trying them on where they have a mirror. They must put them on to go outside in a place where there isn’t a mirror either.
· There are only a few female surfers.
· The whiter, finer Gulf coast sand is harder to walk on.
· Young children have a love-hate relationship with the water.
· Wake boarding is much harder than it looks.
· Ron Jon Surf Shops have a huge advertising budget.
· Children are happy playing in and around the water with their parents.
· When you feed beach birds you understand the term “pecking order.”
· For women, body surfing is better enjoyed in a one-piece swim suit.
· The Gulf of Mexico water is bluer and clearer than the Florida Atlantic costal water.
· People seem to leave their inhibitions in their hotel rooms, condos, or vehicles (or lose them in the drinks with the little umbrellas).
· Hurricanes, even far off shore, create huge waves and a strong undertow.
· There are more shells washed ashore along the Gulf of Mexico than on the Florida Atlantic coast.
· When you swim in the Greater Gulf Shores area you can see fish in the water with you.
· Modern-day cruise ships are HUGE.
· I’ll take seaweed over jellyfish any day, but prefer neither of them.
· Dolphins are visible playing in the Gulf at least twice a day.
· It’s hard to beat a fresh seafood dinner when you’re sitting beach-side at sunset.
· When you really notice the changing of the tides, the variety of sea shells, the sky, and all the wonders the beach offers, how can you deny there is a creator God?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Before I left the store about fifteen minutes later the same young man had offered me a paper on three different occasions. Each time my response was the same. Each time his response was the same. I felt like I was living the movie Ground Hog Day.
It wasn’t until later in the afternoon that I gave any thought to the man who hoped I would become a new subscriber to the newspaper. At the same time I recalled a conversation with a customer service representative from our satellite television provider. As we had concluded our conversation she profusely thanked me for being a new customer and welcomed me to their “family.” I was glad I had made the switch from cable.
Comparing my feelings about being a subscriber of the newspaper vs. a customer of the television provider was an easy exercise. The obvious conclusion? After these two conversations today I am much more satisfied with being a customer of the satellite company.
I suppose the whole encounter with the man trying to give away newspapers in hopes of gaining a new subscription bothered me more than I realized at the time because hours later I am still thinking about it. But why did those encounters at the grocery store bother me? Because it felt like I was invisible to the marketer!
I don’t like being invisible … well, not all the time. One of my favorite scenes from The Princess Diaries (yes, I like a good fairy tale!) is when Mia, caught in a downpour, is trying to get to the Genovian Ball in her top-down Mustang convertible. After experiencing a recurring mechanical failure and ends up stopped on the hill, she flops down on the seat declaring I am invisible.
I don’t think anyone really wants to be invisible. Mia really didn’t. I don’t. Yet I cannot help but think of how many times I have not noticed someone in need. Sure the homeless person with the “will work for food” sign is hard to miss but what about the person who just needs a smile, or a kind word, or a hug, or just some acknowledgment that they exist and that they matter.
Each one of us in very visible to God because we matter to God. As I try to live out the Great Commandment I am recommitted to noticing the people around me in hopes that no one around me is invisible. I won’t get it right every time, so will you be looking too? Perhaps you will notice someone I don’t!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Saturday morning I vowed to pay more attention to life. My intent was to not miss anything ever again (I know, another unrealistic expectation). I don’t know it if was because it was a new resolve or if I, once again, wasn’t paying attention but I almost missed a tremendous opportunity Saturday afternoon. Thank goodness for second chances!
I got home with the groceries before Lee Ann and Erica got home from their errands. When they got home, Erica burst into the house and with tremendous excitement in her voice called: Aunt Trudy, come and see the baby cucumber!
On a side note, the only thing I have ever been able to grow in the yard is weeds! A friend gave Lee Ann some cucumber plants and she has been our gardener this summer. That day we planned to eat the first fruits of her labors, a cuke large enough to harvest. And now, there were more?
Well, it had been a very busy day and my “bad” knee was really hurting. I mean on that smiley-faced medical 1-10 scale I was seriously close to a 10. Going to see the baby cucumbers meant a trip back down and then back up the stairs. I opted to keeping working on dinner instead.
Not heeding that call to come and see affected Lee Ann and Erica. Dinner was much more somber than usual.
After dinner, Lee Ann suggested we go walk. My knee had rested and I knew that giving in to the pain would not help it as much as exercise so I agreed to go. It took a while to realize I had no idea where either of my knee braces were and to locate the pair of walking shoes I vowed to use the next time we hit the track.
Going downstairs I thought Lee Ann had parked her car at an odd angle but didn’t think much about it. She was waiting for me at the back of the car. I didn’t see Erica but heard again: come and see the baby cucumber. I walked around the car to the cucumber patch and after what must have seemed like long minutes to them, looked up to see Erica standing with her arms spread wide apart presenting my new bicycle!
Suddenly the earlier come and see made perfect sense! Instead of the errands they claimed to have run, this wonderful pair had picked out a bike for me so I could ride with them! I was over come to the point of tears! What an incredibly thoughtful and generous gesture! How unexpected. And, because of my earlier slight, how unworthy I felt!
After exchanging hugs, we all three mounted up for a ride! Ah! How I had forgotten that incredible feeling of freedom that comes from coasting while the wind rushes past you. What sheer delight!
And I almost missed it – twice because I didn’t heed the call to come and see. I thought of all the times come and see is expressed in the Bible. What follows is always something awe inspiring! And isn’t that God’s invitation to us as we experience the life God has for us? Come and see!
When we lived in Phoenix we tried to keep the hummingbird feeder full. It was no small task considering the number of the delightful creatures there were in our vicinity! My mother had a house dress with huge red hibiscus on it and whenever she went to the sliding glass door in that dress they came to her.
I have a container with similar red hibiscus on the floor in the corner of the sunroom. They are what had attracted the hummingbird! When I realized what I saw was a hummingbird, the first I had seen in my almost twenty years in Alabama, I think I must have squealed with delight. I remember exclaiming: it’s a hummingbird! Why haven’t I seen one before? Lee Ann looked up from the letter she was writing and said: because you haven’t been looking!
Because I hadn’t been looking! My thoughts immediately began racing. What else had I missed because I hadn’t been looking? Was it the splendor of nature giving testimony to God’s creation? Was it someone in need? Was it someone who wanted to tell me something? What had I missed because I hadn’t been looking? No matter how big or seemingly insignificant it is – I don’t want to miss anything! God, help me keep my eyes on you and the world around me!
Friday, August 14, 2009
This has happened several times recently as I have pondered love, unconditional love, and the consequences of not living a love-motivated life. The first was after I wrote my second blog. I “suddenly” remembered something I had gleaned from the writings of poverty-guru Ruby Payne. What I discovered about how persons living in poverty, the middle class, and wealth see love is that it is the only thing persons from all three classes have in common. No matter what a person’s class they view love as conditional. WOW! Eye-opening! No wonder it is so difficult for us to believe God loves unconditionally! And no wonder we experience loving unconditionally as one of life’s ultimate challenges.
The second time my thinking about love was affirmed, seemingly out of nowhere, was during a staff meeting earlier this week. The three of us were discussing the areas of ministry we would like to address in the future. Out of her wisdom, Diana, expressed her desire that we help others rethink how the Great Commandment (Love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence. Love others as well as you love yourself.) and the Great Commission (Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you.) fit together. She expounded her thoughts by saying if we are Great Commandment Christians then the actions of a Great Commission Christian will naturally follow.
Diana issued a challenge: Let’s be Great Commandment Christians! Right on! She gave me permission to use the phrase so count on me doing that from now on.
And the most recent time an affirmation of my current thinking (I confess that I started to say pontification but that is far too erudite – sorry, I love words! about love came to light was earlier today as I finalized my notes to facilitate a Bible study this Sunday. One of the three persons who contributed to the current unit of study’s Teaching Guide (Smyth & Helwys’ Formations series) wrote: Jesus’ radical call to love one another and give ourselves sacrificially is at odds with everything our society calls “normal.”
So the affirmation is I am not alone in my thinking! It’s good not to be alone. However, the challenge remains. If God’s love is in us the world will know it!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
This morning I was awakened out of sound sleep by a cell phone alarm going off at 5:00 – I had another thirty minutes to sleep! Funny thing about this phone … the alarm was set at 5:00 am last week. One morning the alarm went off even when the phone battery was dead! Today was the second time it chimed at 5:00 when the alarm was set for another time. Despite the gremlin who doesn’t require or enjoy sleep as much as I do, I was awake and so I thought and prayed through my day before giving in to the cat and getting up early any way.
As I imagine we all know can happen, the day was only a few hours young when I had enough of it! Nothing seemed to be going right and I felt miserable. I longed to return to the comfort of my bed and snuggle with my cat. If I wasn’t so committed to new my resolution to eat healthy I would have craved a sausage biscuit and hash browns and given in to the craving, but that didn’t happen, thank goodness (neither the craving or the giving in happened – a double victory)!
Things seemed to be going from bad to worse and I wanted someone to share it with. So I emailed the person closest to me. I realized later I was asking for a life line and, wow, did she throw me one!
In an email she wrote: God's plan for you is there........do you want it?......then pick up that cross, God is already waiting on YOU! He is such a beautiful God that He knows you so well that He will wait patiently for you. You are loved!
In a phone call she challenged me to answer: was I walking in my weakness or walking with God on the path God had for me today? Bingo! No brainer! Of course I need God to led me; actually walk along side me … or as the popular “Footprints” indicates, carry me. When will I ever learn?
Suddenly I felt lighter, happier, energized, and ready to face whatever was ahead of me. Subconsciously I began singing The Servant Song, of my favorite hymns. What a blessing to have someone in my life who will hold her hand out to me; speak the peace I long to hear (paraphrase of lines from the hymn).
Answering the question helped me. Maybe it will have value for you too. What are you walking on today?
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Love is ...
I wonder if the question of “why?” is the only one older that “what is love?” I am going to date myself here. When I was in high school a series of cutesy cherub-like cartoon characters were drawn to illustrate a series of pocket-sized paperback books in a series titled “Love is…”
As you started reading I hope you didn’t think I had “the” answer to the question of “what is love?” Of course, being the highly opinionated person that I am (yes, I admit it!) I think I have some ideas and I know what love means to me but that is a far cry from knowing “the” answer.
I think the closest we can come to knowing “the” answer to “what is love?” is to contemplate how much God loves us. As I type, numerous verses about love from the Bible are whirling through my mind. In an effort to calm the chaos I logged onto biblegateway.com and entered “love” in the key word search using the NIV. I decided to limit the search just to the New Testament. My search resulted in 258 verses! So, if you wonder what the Bible says about love this is a good place to start!
I do know what I believe about love. I believe love is the key to relationships … all of our relationships … our relationship to God … our relationship to family and friends … our relationship to our significant other … our relationship to our fellow human beings … and even our relationship to ourselves. I believe the love God has for us is unconditional and that we are to love unconditionally.
Could it be that there is so much anger, hate, injustice, oppression, distrust, enmity, hostility, violence, prejudice, unfairness, and inequality in the world today because it is easier to feel and act on the feelings of these negative emotions than to love unconditionally?
Monday, August 10, 2009
To bake or to blog?
This weekend I saw the movie Julie and Julia. Afterwards I couldn’t decide if I wanted to blog or cook. Since Lee Ann and I were committed to starting a new three-day “healthy eating plan” the next day I decided to blog! French cooking will come however, in moderation, at some point in my future!
Have you ever experienced one of those times when you say something and have no idea where the thought came from? I have been teaching and preaching since I was in high school and have noticed the phenomena multiple times. Not frequently but more than enough to say rarely.
Yesterday in Bible study it happened again. We were discussing what our core Christian beliefs are and how they were formed. All of a sudden I said: “We are taught what we believe.” The impact of that didn’t hit me until Lee Ann said something at lunch. WOW, I thought, that’s profound! And it is also very, very scary.
Persons today have the capacity to be bombarded with “teachings” from so many different sources! True, John did write (1 John 2:20 "But you have an anointing from the Holy One and all of you know the truth.") which has been interpreted that the Holy Spirit is our teacher… but don't we give more credence to what we hear from parents? pastors? preachers (yes, I am a firm believer there is a difference in the two)? Bible study teachers? friends? TV evangelists? professional teachers? politicians? than from God?
It's really a wonder any one can know why they believe what they do. But oh! how important that we know the answer to that "why?" It is important because it can help us understand why we feel the wya we do about persons how are "different" than us – whether in their religious, political, lifestyle, or cultural views.
I am troubled that Christians have drifted so far from Christ's messsage. Hear Matthew 22:36-39: Teahcer, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?Jesus replied: Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your sould and wiht all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself.
Did you know that in 2008 there were a reported 39,000 Christian denominations? I am convinced that if their leaders preached and taught these few verses with the fervor they bring to passionate teachings and messages "against" others or that they use to proof text their distinctive beliefts, our world would be a revolutionary different place!
Thank you for joining me on my journey of grace and listening as I “think out loud” about what I am seeing, hearing, feeling, and experiencing in my daily walk.